Motivation

What motivates you?

Whether it's to get out of bed an hour earlier to work out, not eat that slice of cheesecake, hop on the bike straight after work, head to the gym when everybody else you know is heading to the pub.

Is it that function you have in a few weeks?  The dress you've been eyeing out in the store window?  Is it just the wondrous feeling of being fit and healthy, or are you trying to impress someone?

I have to admit I'm lacking a bit in the department of motivation at the moment, and while I'm going through the motions: going to yoga classes, riding the stationary bike, doing toning exercises... My heart is just not in it.  

I used to live for the burn in my muscles, the feeling of strength during a work out.  The feeling of having used up every last bit of energy I had, to end up lying on the floor after a run, catching my breath, feeling my heart race.

It is worth it!!

Now, although I do it, I don't give it my all.  The very worst thing has happened and exercise has become a chore, another thing to get out of the way before getting back on that damn couch!  Man, I hate that couch!

Every few days I climb on that scale, with dread instead of enthusiasm.  And while, I'm happy to report the numbers are not increasing, they're not decreasing either.  I still have around 8 or 9 kilo's to reach my goal weight, and they're just not budging.  Every time those numbers are the same any conviction I had just drains from my entire being.

I am trying, I swear I am!

I sneak in a cheat here and there, because "what difference does it make?"  And even though I know that it does make a difference, and before I know it, those flashing red numbers on the scale will be increasing if I'm not careful.  

People still comment about my weight loss so far, and it makes me feel good.  I must add that it has taught me to humbly accept a compliment when I get one, and also to dish compliments out like they're candy.  I love telling someone they look good, or that I love their hair colour (I did this just the other night after scaring the daylights out of a girl when I burst into the bathroom at a restaurant - I like to think the compliment slowed her heartbeat down just a smidge).  But isn't it wonderful to hear nice things about yourself?  I'm not talking complete narcissism or vanity here, but when you put some effort in to look good, it's nice to hear that you do! 

Anyway, I digress.  So, help me out here, if you will, what motivates you?   

Have a great weekend.  And no matter what it is that gets you out there, go out there and be AWESOME!

Peace, Love and Kittens

Claire

xx